Please please help me... I don't need another hospitalization, I need a friend, I need a shoulder to cry on, I just need someone to talk to. I don't have any of that here. I can't call my parents - they are only able to cope with the situation when things are going well, if things are going badly, they will fall apart in front of me. I have no friends here - I have no money, so I don't do bars, and I am unemployed, so I don't have a workplace where I can meet people. I try so hard to be nice and to be constructive and positive, and people just spit in my face. I HATE BEING UNEMPLOYED, [I] HATE HAV[I]NG NO FR[I]ENDS, [I] HATE [FEEL[I]NG [U]N[LOVED AND [U]NWANTED. I hate my life. I am trying to change it, but when you are broke and terrified of people, you don't know how to deal with it. Doctors and therapists don't care - they only care about the money you pay them, therapists are never available when I need to talk to someone, and the shrink won't even bother talking to me, they will simply overmedicate me and lock me up. Help, help, help, help help help help