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Old Dec 31, 2006, 09:00 AM
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That feeling though of nothing interesting one (and then, for me, it went to being interested but only in one little project at a time, no long-term things came up for a couple years) feels very frustrating and sad. At one point though I realized I kind of felt like a clean, empty, new house that I could move into! I'd been working on therapy for so long I hadn't realized I felt "empty" and uninspired because I'd been working of cleaning the house! Now there was nothing much that needed doing and I needed to "turn around" and see the possibilities of where I was, that now I could do "anything" because I'd been doing all this work to clean and empty of the bad stuff. It was a hard perspective to shift to though and keep "steady." I have found new goals though and don't miss the old "me" much. For me it wasn't totally new things I'm doing, just a totally different way of looking at things I "use" to do so I didn't recognize them at first. The best exercise I did turned out to be the old, what would I regret not having done/been looking back on my life at 85 question.
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