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Old Sep 29, 2013, 05:48 PM
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Originally Posted by naejannej View Post
stuck. whats the point of fighting through an episode just to have another lurking around the corner? im tired of the depressions, mainly. they upset my life in a major way and they linger and fester and destroy and then they lurk and taunt and always come back. when the nature of an illness is cyclical, how do you come to terms with the cycle? i know i should keep the good things in life in mind, hold onto them and treasure them. but im just so tired. what are some ways you make it through and hold onto hope? i really need some insight
I wish I had good insights for you to kick this or fight better. I am at the same place, maybe even farther down the rabbit hole than you are.

I'm tired of it all, the ups, downs, in betweens, all of it.

I will say one thing as I noticed your signature says your meds...ambien and topamax do not get along very well together. I was taken off ambien when I started topamax and put on resteril (spelling?). just thought I would mention that as you may want to mention that and see if that helpsw any at all.
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