Wisewoman, Thats just what I felt i needed to do, email her to make sure she is really still there. But felt it being holiday time, well, its just not fair to her for me to be intruding on her time away...but thank you so much for validating my feelings and I so hope one day I can also say that it doesn't hurt anymore..

Perna, Were this particular books you read? I'd be interested in some book titles, thanks.