Sorry if you get this twice, my computer is having "issues". There is a Trigger Warning on this email as I do talk about ED.



I failed in recovery. I was making so much progress while there. I don't know what happened. Since being released on December 19th, I am over 5 days into relapse (I have been restricting again--however I HAVE been eating at least one meal per day).

I can't believe I relaped in less than a week! I must be really weak or ED (the enememy) must have a much stronger grip on me then I know. :'(

I can't believe I failed.

I wrote this while at Rader and truthfully I have not really changed my mind even though I WANT to. Or at least I think I want to. I just don't know anymore. Thanks for listening.
Anjuli

<u>“Choice”</u>
By Anjuli Hurt
November 28, 2006

Life?
Death?
Make a choice.

Death
with ED?
Life without
ED?
choose.

Right now
at this
very moment
I choose
ED.

Life without ED
is still
Death.