Hey I am new here but this thread has really helped me, everyone hit on similar things I feel but I need to write this out for myself (since I really feel like SIing right now)
1.) My therapist would be incredibility upset and feel like she failed me and wasnt there for me
2.) It would turn into the horrible cycle it was for so many years, I wouldnt be able to stop because I would lose hope in myself for starting it again
3.) My mom would be disappointed in me and feel like she is a failure to me
4.) It would harm me helping others, I want to be a therapist and if I lose control again I wont reach my potiental in helping others
5.) I would be so disappointed in myself and feel like an utter complete failure and just want to do it more and it would make my depression worse and I would feel more hopeless
6.) Last time I cut myself in a fit of anger I did a number of myself and went too deep and should have got stiches and it was horrible
7.) I would end up in the hospital again
8.) It wouldnt solve any of my problems or heal the pain
9.) I told my boss that this was in the past and I am beyond it
10.) The only person I would be harming is myself