I was in IP over the weekend. They made sure I was eating and I had therapy (a few different kinds) more than once a day. So it went really well and I feel loads better. And to those who told me I am an adult, that my sister is old enough to make these decisions without parents (she just turned 17) etc, the doctors agreed with me. They said if people knew I lived alone and I was in my mid 30's, that no one would be telling me I can do all of this alone because they would know I have been (and by knew we mean "assume".) Me wanting my mom to live her life and be the mother she wants and knows she can be isn't me being weak or dependent.

I was also told to stop making excuses for her because it's hindering MY grieving. So I wont.

Thanks again to tho who helped. It means a lot.