Hello everyone. Today is my first day in here but self injury has been a part of my life for 21 years. It used to be quite bad for me, several times a day, etc etc. I have gone significant periods of time without doing it (but I was doing drugs at the time, no better). Right now I am on about three months but the temptation has been very great for me in the past three days and especially today. It was helpful to look at the thread on reasons not to do it. I tried emailing my therapist, but as it is the weekend I am not getting a reply. I cannot have anyone stay with me tonight tho I feel this is something I need at the moment, my mom is at work and I live alone. I have been really trying to get ahold of this part of me, but it seems to be such a part of my makeup. Recently old wounds from my family past are being reopened and my parents keep hurting me over and over with their words. My future is very unsure at this point, I am waiting to hear about moving and go to grad school and I think this only adds to my desires to escape even temporarily. I feel a tremendous about of pressure to perform academically, professionally, and personally. I feel I do not have much support in my endeavors to get better, my friends expect me to go back to drinking and using drugs and do not understand why I feel so much pain inside. Thanks for listening and take care.