Payne1, thank you for that hug.

and Thunderbow, thanks for reading and sharing your thoughts. I fortunately have a good hold on outwardly expressing rage. Regrettably, I sometimes experience it inwardly and it takes a lot to get back into a calm place. Guess I really needed to write it out though. Anyway, thanks again.

I suppose this is where CBT or DBT will be helpful. Peace.