Hello all. It's been a very bad day. I feel so alone. I fought with my husband all day today. He is the only person I really have in my life. So now I am feeling so low I can't even bear it. I think I really need a stronger support team around me. But my family lives on the other side of the country, and I really haven't bonded with anyone in the state I'm in now, especially not my husbands family. Sometimes I wish I could just run away. Start anew.

I have been out of therapy for a few weeks now,and have stopped taking my newly prescribed meds- Lamictal because I was getting insanely itchy skin, that felt like it was crawling. Also I was having such insanely detailed and real dreams that I was becoming apprehensive about even going to bed. They weren't enjoyable. It really bummed me out that I had to stop. I was hoping something would finally work. So this week I've just been drinking, every day... I am so unhappy.

Sorry this is kind of a pointless rant. I just feel the need to communicate with someone, even if it is with people through cyberspace. I need to talk to someone. I am so sad. I will probably now just go into the shower and bawl my eyes out.