omg. mouse thank you so much for posting this. i feel like ive been punched in the stomach. my breath is literally taken away. its so simple i cant believe it just clicked. my dad told me a few months ago he resented me and my sister being born and i just nodded cos i knew it already. it didnt phase me. but now i just connected that to why i always believe in my heart that no one wants me or to be around me. why im always suspicious and dismissive of people who do seem to want to know me. omg. i feel sick and light headed. this feels huge. no wonder. no wonder at all. wow. and wow again. sitting here dumbfounded...