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BipolaRNurse · Sep 30, 2013, 03:50 AM

Take a look at what I found on FB tonight.....it's written by my sister, who supposedly loves me, to a mutual friend ON THE FREAKING INTERNET.

Hi Sweetie! I'm still alive but I'm sure BPN told you that. I'm in a really bad way in my heart. It's not my usual behavior to talk or be with people until the worst is over. But I have no idea when or even if this depression will end. I am sorry I haven't gotten in touch and above is why. I feel that my sister, my last living relative from my core family has cut me out of her life and I don't know what I did that was so bad. She's doing pretty well now, and I'm in the dumpster. Oh, I'm sorry to lay this on you. I hope you are rich in health and love.
Hi you! I'd love to see you, but right now I'm in Sheridan many miles away from you in an assisted living facility. I was put here because my loving sister couldn't handle more than one person being in a bad way. Bill has cancer and I have fallen a couple of times. The choice was simple, but the inability to cope just hurts me to the core. She also wouldn't let me get any of my things because I would have to go up 3 stairs. I'm hoping that with ben's help I can move to Salem in less than a month. Its another facility but that's okay. I can't tell you how much I miss Zoey, who is of course not even a little bit my dog. That's been made abundantly clear.
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All of which, of course, is ********. She did more than 'fall a couple of times', she busted her butt and her hip because she was so stoned on pain meds all the time that she couldn't stay on her feet. And using my MI against me by portraying me in public as unstable and "unable to handle" having BOTH husband and sister in a bad way while I struggled with my own issues........well, I never expected my own sister to do that.
We've been very close for most of our lives, even though she has always steadfastly refused to listen to anything about herself that isn't 110% unicorns and rainbows. But now I see the meanness that her grown kids have been telling me about for decades. I have ALWAYS stood up for her, advocated for her, run interference for her. I guess none of that matters now, because I refused to let her come back here to live so she can wreck my sanity AND my home again.
I can't believe how bad this hurts. But I'm not going to give her the satisfaction of imploding so she can broadcast THAT all over Facebook too. I'm going to stay up until I think I can sleep, take my meds, and go to bed. I think.