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Originally Posted by Nobodyandnothing
I grieve for all I have missed. My education, my kids being born and growing up, summers, holidays, graduations. All gone. All due to depression, ECT and meds. My kids are always asking "do you remember when..." and it nearly kills me to say I don't. It makes them feel terrible too. What troubles me the most is the fear that I may pass this beast on to one or more of them. I was 23 when this started. I am 57 now and I continue to have severe memory and concentration problems. We have to play with the cards we are dealt.
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you raise a very good point- and in my case, i don't feel i've had half of the experiences someone my age would have.. due to the mental illness mostly
for me, it's got to the stage where even if i'm not depressed and someone asks me what i want to do in my life, i really don't know... and i'm constantly playing with ideas- which leads to never settling anywhere long, going in and out of diffrent colledges, even having months of just not caring anymore.
as for the do you remember thing, i get that too- though for me, i do remember most of the time and it breaks my heart that hings can't be the way they were for 1 reason or another