i was diagnosed with depression in 2010 and i am out of it now .

recently a conversation with my family popped up....and i happened to say that i didn't feel very supported, emotionally, by my family during that time. as far as i remember, my mom just ignored it....she never asked me how my sessions went, she never told me "you can talk to me whenever you feel like"...she never asked me when and why i stopped therapy. everytime i returned from a session.....it was pretty much as if i had gone out to pay the electricity bill.

my brother, on the other hand tried his best to prove that i didn't have depression. he threw up "research" which talked about how certain hormonal problems can mimic depression (i have hormonal problems). infact, when i told him that i was depressed his first sentence was "i don't why you are so desperate to prove to us that something is wrong with you". he went on to say "i would never go to a shrink...rather....i would talk to family about my problems"....and pretty much since that time....he has taken every opportunity to belittle shrinks....he calls them "useless".

now, since the conversation popped up......my family claims they were very supportive. my mom claims that she "discussed" my sessions. she claims she wanted to insist coming along with me, but left me because she wanted to give me "space". my brother rubbishes any argument of him not being supportive and counters by giving examples of when he was supportive of me and instead he claims that he has no memory of incidents when "he was not supportive".

Why don't I have any memory of my family supporting me???? The incidents they speak of 'supporting me' really sound like a piece of fiction to me and the incidents which I speak of 'not supporting me' sound like a piece of fiction to them.

My family are good people and I have no doubt of that. There are many, many instances where they supported me wholeheartedly....but my depression was one place where I felt like I was battling out all alone. Infact, one of the reasons I moved on was because I convinced myself that I cannot expect any support from my family, thus cutting off all the hurt.

What's your take on this?? IYO, am I blocking out memories of my family's support or has my family created fake memories of where they support me??

Any thought is hugely appreciated and pls feel free to type whatever you feel....it will not change the way I love my family or the way I think of myself.

thanks a ton!!