I can totally relate to this. It is like everyone else can just talk about whatever happened in their life and make all that small talk. I just can't. It would bore people to death PLUS most small talk seems so mindless.

In fact, I have been self-employed for almost 20 years. And the very first thing I thought about when I started working for myself was "yea, now I do not have to attend those awful Christmas work parties". I hated those - painful small talk with bosses and collegues.