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Originally Posted by Lily5473
My t is leaving in less than a month. I always knew she was gonna leave at the end of the year, but I never thought it would come this fast. I love her. I love her. And I just wish that I could have gotten to know her outside of therapy. I know everybody says that's its transference, but I don't care. She was my first t and she's a rockstar. I only saw her for 6/7 months, but I'm having a very hard time letting go. Ever since I've realized how little time we have left together I've shut down. I know this frustrates her, but I just don't want it hurt. I pretend like everything is fine, but she sees right through me. I cry almost every night. She's done sooo much for me. How can someone so special to me, just leave? How am I supposed to go on like nothing ever happened? I don't ever want to do therapy again, b/c if I can't have her, I don't want anyone.
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I'm giving you a big squishy hug because I know what this feels like. You will grieve for awhile and your heart will likely change when it comes to seeing someone else.
I felt the same way. If I can't see my T then I'm done with therapy. Things change though, even though it seems IMPOSSIBLE.
Cry and let it out. Try to work through the loss with your therapist as much as you can. Otherwise, you're going to be left without anyone to help you cope.
I cried everyday, almost all day, for probably a month. It gets less and less. Please keep seeing another therapist as an option at the back of your mind, even if it's only to help you get through the impending loss.