Sierra and Moxie,

T actually emailed me back this morning. She replied to the last one I sent asking her not to read the rest of the emails and said that she hoped I was having a good time. She also said that she had not read the other emails, but before she deleted them without reading them, she wanted to be sure that I really didn't want her to read them.

So, needless to say big sigh of relief.

I did ask her to go ahead and delete them, but I also summarized the general points I had made in the email because they weren't any big dark secrets.

I feel so much better about it now and definitely won't be doing that again. I think its time to go back in my little shell, because i am just doing the most. So extreme about everything, excessive "socialness" or excessive isolation

Tollhouse, that makes me feel better lol. Now that you have made that point - I wonder/ think that I might be too... she's told me before that I test her, I just never realize it when I do.