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Sep 30, 2013, 02:05 PM
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Member Since: Apr 2012
Location: Earth
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*Its seeping into my brain, telling it new messages. I wish I could hear them better, but they are subliminal messages. My brain just knows how to feel from them. At the same time, I feel shaky, like I've had too much coffee and I can't sit still. What is there to do!? I must do something! And when I start something, I might finish it- I might not. My life is full of tiny little disjointed bits. Moment to moment, unrelated. Physical feeling to physical feeling. Overwhelmed by how my brain feels by what I see, or what I hear.
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I just saw my cat and then he disappeared!
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The girl I've described disappearing lasted longer: she as definitely there for me to see and then she was gone. Its tempting for people to say they are ghosts. Why would my cat be a ghost when he is alive? Maybe he's teleporting. hehe. Funnily enough, he didn't meow. That would've been better- a little more information. Sometimes, I catch things out of the corner of my eye that aren't there, but again, I think that is normal.
I still feel ramped up but that could be the coffee.
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An intense buzzing in my brain happens as I am carried up and down. My whole body is carried along. Into paradise and into peace. Carried by angels. Soaring, telling me everything. I now know all. I*am*all. I fly, carrying all. My cat and I are one. He is me. Going into paradise. Into peace.
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I want to cry. I'm exhausted. WTF don't they understand about I know everything and the sun is telling me the secret to the universe? The I wanted to climb over the balcony this morning?
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Print ^^^
You want to do this while your still coherent because everything is a lot scarier when you're not.
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