Yes, if you want to know the real reason going to a professional is your best option.

but we also want to let you know that those having DID are not all child abuse survivors.

It only has to be an event that a child's mind can not handle.

Even those with full blown DID are triggered more under stress.

It may help you to sit down and write down the events that are happening when you are doing this. by recording the events you just may be able to figure out what is causing this reaction and allow your self a way to learn coping skills.

good luck!