I hope someone can come through for you. If you need to vent in the mean time, get it out; If you need someone to listen, I am around-- you may send me a message, if that will help. I am new to this forum.. saw your thread and immediately empathized. I went through an extreme manic episode last fall-so I have been thinking about what I myself went through a lot- I have been stable for a year now.. it helps sometimes to have an ear.. Just let me know!