I'm wondering,in your dream do you look like your reality self or like someone else but you just have that familiar feeling that its you,and do you ever actually SEE yourself like you're in the background watching,or are you actually seeing the dream through your eyes.And who or what is it you're killing and why and how?I believe our dreams are our brains way communicating and teaching us as we sleep.I think in the dream state our brains use subjects that grab our attention and jolt us into focusing on what important by using many images,feelings,actions and people that are symbolic of other stuff that means something.Funny ,why doesn't brain just say it like it is without the games?That's what happens on auto pilot,brain wings it. So,even though the topic of you dream sound awful in reality,really pick apart all aspects of every detail.Like how an action made you feel,and for example in reality,what THAT feeling means in real life,people,places,objects,subjects......all of it means a particular THING to only YOU.If you like games and puzzles or mysteries,dreams are awesome for that.Sorry I couldn't help more.Good luck kiddo,and congrats on school,and I love your signature.You're a good thinker.