Was 114 about a year ago, now I'm 116. Not terribly concerning.

But now I'm considering going back into therapy. I've never felt that I got a lot out of the several attempts I made with different therapists, I always just end up in the same place. But... every once in a while I want to try again. This time cause I think I've got a lot of things I can talk about, the evaluation page of the sanity test is kind of unsettling when you see that there are 6 major areas of concern.

It'd just be nice to get some clarity or an official diagnosis as opposed to multiple internet tests telling me what is potentially wrong with me.

But here's the bad part. I like the idea of getting prescription drugs. It's really bad that that is a motivation for starting therapy. I have a bit of a drug habit. And also I'm not really too sure how much I trust the whole therapy process or the health system in general. So there's that.

So should I seek help or not? I don't know.