I react to them emotionally on the inside, like anger, but I don't let it show in public where I manage to keep them in check.

Thing is I need no triggers: This pretty much just happens almost constantly because of how severe my emotional damage was.

Also I just had a shouting match with my OCD in the kitchen. Nobody heard me cause I was alone but the thoughts just got really intense. It doesn't help that the threat of poverty and my brother's death really amped up the pressure.