I recently posted a thread saying I had spoken to the person who according to everyone, though I cant see it, sexually assualted me.
I did bring up the 'assualt', I was just asking him why he used me, etc. He answered and was awful to me calling me a 'crazy *****' when I was talking about things that made me feel very vulnerable. I then didn't answer him and started to see him as not just a knight in shining armour. But then a few days later, he messaged me first (which instantly made me feel luck that he thought I was worthy of that) then he started apologising for things and being nice to me. I asked him if the reason he stopped talking to me was because I didn't go far enough sexually... He then said he wanted us to, but he would have never have forced me. I never mentioned anything about forcing. So my boyfriend thinks it weird why he would say that? This also makes me excuse what he has done to me even more and now I feel as though I'm back to square one and hes this hero all over again. But as soon as I told him he didn't have to be sorry for hurting me (using me, etc I didn't mention the assualt), he started being really blunt again like now I said it was okay again, he didn't bother. And I feel exacatly how he made me feel two years ago... A backup plan. But I think that's fine, cause he holds all this power over me..

PLEASE what does anybody think of this?

Thank you