if this is considered mood management then I want out real quick!

I had a few real intense episodes not so far off to still be close not so far away I still remember them like they were the same ones as all the time up until now!

...enough and deliberately accidental personal explosions for the doc to up the meds and introduce a new one.

like hell it was too much before and now it's too little!

...and can I 'feel' too much about feelin' too little?

or was it feelin' to little about what felt too much?... that got me into this inconvenient glitch?

I suddenly hate myself... for wishing this comprehensive emptiness upon myself...

clearly holding myself to blame for dumping everything that's ever possible to be overdone onto me!

now I am so chemically captured
I have lost my spirit