Mildly low today. Woke up anxious for my pdoc appointment, after that the anxiety left and the depression hit. I sat for near on 3 hours at my mums trying to socialise but I had trouble following conversation and just could not come up with anything interesting to say. I started crying on the drive home and got straight into bed when I got there. I know, the opposite of what I should have done. I didnt stay in bed for long, eventually I got up and went outside to play with the animals. It helped a little. Smoking helped more, but I dont want to do that again, the last one I had was my last one. Watching Buffy now and eating chocolate, telling myself that tomorrow will be a better day. There are some contributing factors to this minor disruption so Im not too worried yet.