In my head that is. I have had significant triggers and many of them for a few months and it took me until a few days ago to realize that I need a med change. My reaction to my doctor, my amount of fear, my agitation. All indicators. Problem is my doc was a snot. I didn't tell anyone that while I was feverishly trying to get reassurance after the trigger with feeling like she was saying the pain is all in my head, I saw her again and she said she was very angry and that I was annoying the heck out of the staff and that I was acting like I had Borderline. I tried to explain to her that my reaction was PTSD and why I reacted like I did and she actually thought that I was saying that she had done these things. arrggghhhh.

It has proven impossible to find a psychiatrist so I am left with decisions. I guess I will go to her spouse and ask for a med change and suggest what I think would be helpful. I will even explain to him that I know I need a change because of the increased fear and triggering and non-ambition. I get paranoid for lack of a better term. It took me so long to see it this time.

I hope He treats me well. I will call tues. Wish me luck all.