Sometimes I wonder why I read this forum so much. (But usually on my phone, so it's a PITA to post responses.)

I think it's because therapy was the first time in my adult life, or teen life, where I had someone care about me and listen to me and try to get me, without asking for emotional support in return.

My friends who come from good families take this for granted. But my emotional needs were always discounted and for the most part, I'm ashamed to even have them.

So I read this forum to help myself not be so scared to open up in therapy. And also, I can't get enough of therapy-related things. I'm so *hungry* for knowledge and information about therapy relationships.

Also, I find therapy to be such a mystery, still. I don't get it, I don't get why or how it works, I don't get exactly what I'm supposed to be doing there.

I do know that it has helped keep me alive and it helps me be a less anxious person.

I bet these forums have a lot of lurkers.