Don't think of it as a relapse, just a set back...if u've come so far you CAN stay there and continue getting better. By the way, i like ur poem, especially the last line. Life without ED may seem like death right now as when something has been a part of ur identity for so long it's hard to let go and come back down to reality, for reality is a hard, scary place if u don't quite have the tools to deal with it. but, what i have found is life w/out ED is like a rebirth, a second chance. All the best