That's a hard state to be in and I never found people's advice to be very helpful to me because they just didn't seem to understand that I was frozen and incapable of action.

But, on days when I'd thaw a little, my goal was to do one thing. Just one thing. Like check the mail, or get dressed, or take a shower, or walk the dog, or read to my kid - just one thing, no more. And when I could do one thing, then I'd add another. Get dressed and eat breakfast. Sit down and pay bills. Go to the grocery, but nap when I got home.

I started my self on the shortest, smallest possible routine and then added more as I felt I could handle more. Nothing is too small. Every little thing counts as progress. There were good days and bad days, but the overall change was moving forward and eventually, I didn't feel like a useless rock weighing down my family and being burden.

If you can afford it, ask for help. Focus on doing just your one thing and then pay somebody (or ask an understanding friend or family member) to come over and help you do the rest. Let someone else help you out with whatever needs to be done and you add on what you can do one thing at a time.

You mentioned having a lot to be grateful for. Start a journal and write what you're grateful for. And list the things that are causing your anxiety, then put them aside. Keep track of each thing you manage to do. Checked the mail? write it down. gold star. Took a bath? write it down. gold star. And you can rate your anxiety and depression levels at the same time. For ex: today was a 5 of 10 on anxiety and 8 of 10 on depression, or whatever.

That's a lot of stuff I yammered on about. Take it or leave it, feel free to ignore all or parts of it. For now, just do one thing. You can do one thing. I know you can. Do one thing.

I'll be sending you peaceful and productive thoughts....good luck...