Yeah my new love is hiking, that is so amazing about your accomplishments and the way you have really taken it up. On the weekends I head up to the mountains or go camping and it is thrilling. It really really has helped me to stay sober I wish I had more time to do it but life seems to get in the way. I still smoke (boo) and wish I could let that go so I could be in top physical form.

About AA, I am willing to try it again. I have had some bad experiences in the past. I may be moving soon and hope to find some meetings in another area. I do have someone that kind of acts like a sponsor to me and we talk about the steps. She is my only real connection to the groups. I just feel like people got so sick of me going out and relapsing and without telling me, two sponsors dropped me because they said I was a hopeless case. So it is just trying to overcome that shame.