I almost wish I could say something terrible happened to me today. I wish I had a breakup or a fight with a girlfriend, or somebody died, or anything happened to upset me. Instead of just unbelievably depressed for absolutely no reason at all. I'm making friends, I have 3 new groups of friends I've made since august, my birthday is next week, my life is looking so far up since the summer. It doesn't matter, I'm just as depressed as ever for absolutely no reason. I really just want to either live drinking or sleeping. The only two times life makes sense.