I can feel the anxiety in your post. It's not a good feeling for you, I know.

Sometimes I tried to simply manage day by day with my anxiety, but doing that caused a deeper depression because I was never succeeding in the maintenance of it.

One of the best things I did for myself was to go for therapy. I had someone just for me...someone who had great ideas and when he didn't, he just listened. Is that an option for you?

My anxiety decreased greatly straight away and I went off of meds. I stayed of anxiety meds at that point.

I learned so many applicable techniques to try to deal, but also learned to deal with my situations differently (as well as view them differenty) and that helped greatly as well.

It seemed like I had to (still have to) fight literally for ME TIME...time to take care of me how I needed to. I was able to find that in small spurts...long baths with low lights and candles, crafts that I could do so that even when present and watching baby I could kind of desolve the anxiety into it, making a place just for me in my home that I could disappear to (even for ten minutes). When there's a will, there's a way...

I know how you feel. I've been there, still get there sometimes.

I wish you well.

KD