I can totally relate... I saw my T today and she's going away and it brought back a lot of childhood stuff for me. I do try to plan something else for the time I usually see her... I think some kind of self-care is good. It's a weird kind of paradox... I felt like not being attached to her and pulling away. But letting myself have the feelings and talk through it with her actually makes me feel better about her going. Not completely better, but at least I told her what is coming up for me. My T is only going for a week... sometimes how it affects you is more about where you're at in the process, than the actual length of time they are going for.