I am not honest to medical doctors because i wax and wane between genuinely wanting to be better and wanting to be sicker. Now i've been prescribed a med truly contraindicated for a person with ed.
...i also wore a "doc outfit" (outfit which has sewn in weights to artificially boost the scale #) to the appt to ensure that this and some other similar drugs weren't elminated as options.

.....i really dont know if i feel defeated or triumphant.