I struggle with these issues myself. I'm a 23 year old male. I don't accept my reality at all because I don't want to. So I play video games all the time and pretend I'm in a fantasy world instead of my own crappy life. It's what I've been raised to do, it's what I've been doing since before I learned how to read.

I also take Wellbutrin every day and have been doing so for like 9 months now... I've tried so many other meds too and you might want to ask about getting a genetic test because that's what my psychiatrist is recommending for me. They can test you to see if there are any meds that will work for you.

I am very shy and it is a total nightmare for me. I don't want to be this way, I long for a relationship with someone, but I can't seem to connect with anyone...feel very distant from anyone and anything. A horrible lonely feeling like being in hell.

I binge eat all the time too. I'm not sure if my meds contributed to my appetite or not, though.

I'm not to content knowing I'll probably be in therapy the rest of my life...