It's good to get all of the physical symptoms checked out. If they show that you are probably having anxiety then it's good to speak with someone about an evaluation for anxiety, depression and appropriate meds. Don't be afraid of the meds because they can be really helpful even if it sometimes takes a while. You deserve to feel better and anxiety is your brain chemistry tricking you. First off it needs a total evaluation. I am sorry about your parents. A lot of loss in a short time. How old are your kids? Please hang in there and know that it can get better nad the right help makes all of the difference in the world.