So, I made an appointment for today with my family doctor. I am scared. I have so much going on. My husband works out of town this time of year and is about to be gone for 8 weeks. I live next door to my parents. Both of which have health issues, serious ones. I am 34 years old. I am the youngest of 4. It seems all the responsibility for my parents care has been placed on me and my family. My husband and I are taking care of 2 houses, 2 teenaged daughters, he works full time, I work part time. My children also help greatly with my parents and usually stay with them anytime there is no school. One of my brothers has Chrone's Disease. My other brother has recently been diagnosed with a progressive form of MS. My sister is great but she lives in a child's way. She sees everything so much differently from her childlike eyes.

I don't feel that I can emotionally handle everything without my husband while he has gone. I have been very irritated lately with everything. My youngest child told me to stop making a mountain out of a mole hill. Great assessment from a 13 year old girl, by the way.

I am feeling extremely nervous about my appointment today and I don't know if I will actually even go or not at this moment. I don't think there is any hope for me getting better. I have been down this road so many times and I am just tired of fighting with my emotions