No, the previous people who treated me already took me off my meds to see if I was bipolar or not, and they found out that I was and gave me a diagnosis. These new guys don't want me off my meds, because of the psychosis risk. When they took me off my meds the last time, they wanted me to go inpatient (I refused), so I think that's what they'll want to do again when my unemployment benefits stop and I need a diagnosis, which as of now I don't have (because you need a diagnosis, not just a list of symptoms, to get disability benefits here). I'm not trying to get disability, I'm just trying to be realistic. I probably still won't be working in 2 years.

I'm trying really hard to listen to them, and when I'm there it's fine and I understand them well. When I'm home I get frustrated and angry again.

The reason they think there's a risk for psychosis is that I can get mild delusional thoughts during hypomania, I have some mild hallucinations and illusions, etc. when not medicated, and I have some "weird" thoughts and magical thinking. The reason I think this isn't my main problem is that this is mostly just a problem for me when I'm hypomanic or very depressed, so I think much or most of it might be caused by the bipolar. And otherwise these psychosis risk symptoms don't bother me that much, and I don't think they're that serious.

The symptoms that are bothering me a lot are the bad sides of hypomania, my depressed periods, and the avolition that I also have when hypomanic and when not depressed. I've told them all this a few times, but maybe not as specific as now.

Thanks for your reply!