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Originally Posted by HikingChick
Yeah my new love is hiking, that is so amazing about your accomplishments and the way you have really taken it up. On the weekends I head up to the mountains or go camping and it is thrilling. It really really has helped me to stay sober  I wish I had more time to do it but life seems to get in the way. I still smoke (boo) and wish I could let that go so I could be in top physical form.
About AA, I am willing to try it again. I have had some bad experiences in the past. I may be moving soon and hope to find some meetings in another area. I do have someone that kind of acts like a sponsor to me and we talk about the steps. She is my only real connection to the groups. I just feel like people got so sick of me going out and relapsing and without telling me, two sponsors dropped me because they said I was a hopeless case. So it is just trying to overcome that shame. |
Your experiences with AA might have been bad because you really weren't ready for what AA had to offer. I know that was my case. Also, if you are in a large enough town there are most likely several groups. Try them all and see which one fits you best. You are not a hopeless case, you can get better. But you have to be able to be honest with yourself and others about your disease. If you can't do that you will have a hard time in recovery. If you go to an AA group where they make you feel ashamed, unwelcome, or like a failure then you are in the wrong place. Just be sure that it is the group that makes you feel that way and not your own feelings about yourself. If AA doesn't work, you might try NA you also have substance abuse concerns. Good luck to you. You can do it. Just take it one day at a time.