I completely understand- I think about it all the time. I don't think I feel bad about myself necessarily but I at the same time, I never feel totally comfortable or confident with myself. I have always been the type that is constantly thinking about "what should I say/do next" or fretting over what I just said/did- "did that sound/look stupid?" I always wonder about people who are so confident and witty- do they even have those thoughts. What would it be like to just be without all of those conversations in your head? Does anyone else deal with this. It has gotten worse for me lately- even with my husband and family (parents)- wondering what they think of me, my relationship, my actions, my words, am I acting wierd? do they know I'm anxious?
Anyone relate?
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