I've coped with that feeling for 5 years now. Time dulls the pain, but never gets rid of it completely. I can relate 100% to everything you posted here, I have not much advice on how to cope with it except hang in there! You're not alone in your loneliness. There is other lonely people out there to. My T and I agree I'm still not in a good place to even try to get into a relationship at this point, they send my MH spiraling out of control, so demanding, triggering and anxiety provoking for me. Take your time finding a new partner, so you can find somebody who appreciates you for you. Give yourself some time to heal, healthy people attract healthy partners! 
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"Much like wind blowing through hollowed cemetery grounds, we all circulate within this void of reality in search of something more profound. Hopes and Dreams fuel our will to live, projecting our desires into the universe and awaiting what it gives. Throughout life's journeys you will encounter Saints as well as the Heartless, but remember, in order to Appreciate the Light, one Must spend time in Darkness." ~ Prozak
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