I feel for you, because I am in the same place. and also medless, therapyless, & doctorless. I get up every day because I have no other choice, I plod through that tireing pain filled day because I have no other choice. I have been doing that for soooo loooong that it is kind of like an "Autopilot" for my body, while the insides (the real me) has been gone for over 30 years. I admire your strength because I am a week coward myself. too scared to even ask for help. (I posted in anexity explaining that one)

I keep going because no matter how I feel, it is the only thing I CAN do I firmly believe I am beyond all hope of help, and that turns out to my biggest stumbling block. I know I need it, but I literally have no rescourses. no money, no friends, no family to speak of........

if it wasn't for the fact that I FORCE myself to go on, I wouldn't be here. so even tho it might not make you feel any better, I will say it anyway:

if I can do it, you can do it!

after part of a broken dish is still better than no dish at all.

than kyou for your time, hope you feel (if not better) more relaxed soon.