One moment of helplessness, hopelessness, pain, wortlessnes and lonliness to end it all. I have never gotten to that point to do it myself, I'm not brave enough to do that. But an overdose, some kind of freak accident, a car accident, I'd be okay. I keep looking at all this medication I have and think "If I take handful of these pills will that give me peace?". I'm too tired. My life is in shambles and I cannot put it back together, even with anyone elses help. I have no support systems (half of that is my fault because I feel like it's too weird to tell my family) but very few friends who may understand somewhat, I can't keep talking to them. Which is sad enough in the first place how little support I have. I honestly feel my T is the only one that understands. I can't keep bugging her everyday. I don't want to be here. I want a way out. I need a break from life. I can't keep going every single day like this.