Oh Anika So sorry to hear your going through so much. Prayers of healing to your mom, get that cancer out. There is still time for healing your relationship with her too, all is possible. I hope the kids are doing ok, they must be worried too.

I agree with Christina, this is situational insomnia, totally understandable for all the stress right now. When I get bad like that , I try to adjust work hours & take day naps while kids at school, because once they get home, there is no chance for rest. Just manage riding the wave best you can, be gentle with self.

I understand the mind spinning and guilty thoughts, but please let yourself off the hook, you are human, you just are going through so much - I don't want you to be hard on yourself. Like the Tao, sit in the middle, the eye of the storm of stress and emotions. Let it swirl around you, it is life & chaos will swirl always, and may it not engulf you, while you are at center.

Om White Tara, Mother of Kindness & Healing & Mercy