I'm real sorry your mom couldn't be there for you. That sucks. But you have come to the right place for support and comfort. I can understand your depression, since that's where I'm at too. I am the opposite of you in that when I'm depressed I prefer to suffer alone. Some days it takes all I have to post on here, but I force myself to because I believe the support I get here somehow make the depression a little easier to take.

There is no doubt that depression sucks. Hope you are better soon.