Thank you Perna and Is this. I know I am beginning to thaw and I don't like it very much, I haven't felt in a long time. As for looking at my file - last session he offered to let me go through it, he said it is my file and I just need to let him know if or when I would like to look at it. This came up because a few months ago I left my husband and I am getting ready to file for a divorce. He has said that if I file he will bring my mental state into the hearing as I am not a fit mother. I have been putting off filing but I am tired of his crap (my husbands) and I am not going to let him bully me any longer. So when I went in last week I asked my T if he thought I was crazy. He assured me I wasn't and said that he would fight to keep my file out of any proceedings and even if it did get into court - there was nothing in there that would show me as an unfit mother or anything that would have bearing on my ability to care for my children. He assured me I would not lose custody. My husband does not want the children, he is just trying to get at me and cannot understand that the real loser in all this will be the children, my husband currently is unable to care for the kids so he won't gain custody. But he plays alot of mind games with me and I can't stand it, he makes me doubt my sanity all the time. This is probably more than you guys wanted to know, sorry about that.

I don't just ask what is wrong with me as I am afraid to find out. Does that make any sense? I am desperate to know but to afraid to ask???

Thank you guys so much - This whole process is new to me and appreciate all your help.