I am so sorry you are feeling so down right now. I know what is like to be afraid all the time. Recently I have really been trying to work through some of the fears. I just picked a small thing or situation I was afraid in and faced it. I was really surprised by what happened or rather did not happen, I think I always focus on the worst possible outcome. It helped me to work up to facing the next fear. My T has really helped me with this. He gave me direction on what to do and how to go about doing it. Do you have a T or a mentor maybe?