I don't know if I am in the right forum with this or not so please feel free to direct this to another forum if you need too.

This is the third time I'm writting this and I don't know, when I will be finished, if I will hit the continue bottom or not.

I feel very confused, trapped, I hate myself and I need your help.

Where I stand right now, I must start to say to my husband what I want and don't want, what I want to do and not do, where I want to go and not go, what I need and not need, what I believe in and don't, in a few words, I need to stand my ground.

But I have a big problem doing this. It's as if I need someone to give me permission to do this. I need someone to tell me that I will not be doing anything wrong by doing this. I need someone to help me not feel guilty about all this. I need someone to tell me I have the right to defend myself.

I am an abusive situation and I need your help.

Thank you!