Thanks... I'm really sorry for this.
I talked with my college group leader last night, and got re-focused a little. Still feel pretty bad, but with a bit more purpose. Although I feel very trigger-some and emotionally needy right now. I really wish I could have a hug, or fall apart in tears - some sort of release like that. It's hard to release anything right now. But I know there's purpose to my life, something good and special, which I'm probably being prepared for by this crap. Just got to try to focus on that, and avoid thinking about everything else for now.

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Matthew 11:28
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.</font color=green> Sounds good...